thinking with the heart, not head.. is it the right one??

Desire, lust, excitement, nervousness, frustration etc. etc. etc...all come under the seemingly innocuous word "Emotions"...

Well, emotions govern our lives... It motivates us, depresses us, makes us impulsive and in many ways defines us as a person... I think people who can control their emotions live better lives than someone like me who is a bit emotional doormat.. 

Hmmmm so who exactly is an emotional doormat?? (I coined the phrase btw..haha) Well someone who thinks with her heart, not head, someone who naively still believes in the fact, that people are what they say they are, no hidden agendas because after all...why would one make life more complicated than it already is? Someone who genuinely cares about people, is empathetic and yup, a little sensitive... Yeah, yeah..i can say, that is me and now you know why I am confused and bewildered....

I feel like I am an anamoly, I am positive, extrovert, generally happy, motivated, yet sensitive, extremely emotional, get hurt easily but always trying to cover it up, impulsive oh well...

Emotions - We need to be able to control it and not let it control us. Profound, huh :)

i wanna.....

I wanna
walk without stumblin
run without trippin
get out of the chair without fallin
dance without tumblin

I wanna
cook for my babies without stumblin
drive them to activities without crashin
play with them without trippin
read to them without fumblin

I wanna
be able to skip down the stairs
hike treacherous trails
dance with gay abandon
do things at random

I wanna
be busy runnin
doin things without thinkin
creatin, visualisin, makin
all the little things that make up
the intricate nuances called LIFE



yea...i cant deny dis's easy to say that u love someone..L.O.V.E..such a simple word isn't it?but u can never imagine how challenging the path u r goin through once u said it to someone..someone u prove da takes a life many things u have to learn and experience, so many things u have to change and sacrifice in ur life, so many things u have to do for it..but i do believe dat all r worth if u do have da LOVE...n yea..i promise to myself..i am going to prove it to 'someone' eventhough it may takes a lifetime...:)

Hearing something that
 kills u inside and having to 
act like u are fine is 
one of the bravest thing in 
the world...

right now is never da same as before.....

I’m changing, evolving depending on 

time and situation

if u hate it, turn away & back off! go 

away from my life and act like u never

 existed...! i dont mind & i dont even

 care...this is my life!


i just had a talk with my friends bout something.. and i feel so guilty right now.. i didnt mean to treat you badly.. and i have no intention to do that.. and seriously i have no idea what to do right now.. i feel like im a bad person by treating you like that. i feel so guilty right now.. :( i thought i wanna ask you whether you're okayh or not.. but im afraid that you'll do the same thing like you did to me last time.. and yea, i have to be fair to you and everyone.. and i have to treat you nice like i treat others. i should not have any boundaries to do like that.. im SORRY.. -.- i hope that, you'll read this.. when i talked to my friends bout this, i felt like crying cuz im so BAD like HELL.. huhu.. i just dun know what i want.. im confused. and im afraid that you'll fulfill your promises to me.. but i dun know. -.- ouh god.. please help me bout this.. i dun want to be a gurl thats full of questions that cant be answered. i just hope that this prob will be settled nicely..

p/s: dear me....:(

important person named " friend "

Friends - a meeting of minds, heart and soul, a connect, a rapport, an understanding, an instant connection, shared giggles, fall back when you need a shoulder to lay your weary head, someone who takes you for who you are and loves u unconditionally all of your goofy crazy self.
You meet so many people over the span of your lifetime... not everyone becomes your buddy, there are only a few with whom the connections is total and complete, there are some that are connected but not fully and then there are aquaintances.
You can be friends even if you have not met the person physically, or even spoken to! In the age of social networking we have a whole new way of making friends.....
Again some manage to get close to your heart and become your best buddies where they understand you and your moods and are there for you. Friends who motivate you, love you, inspire you only through their written words and love in their heart and true genuine friendship in their hearts.
A friend is someone who smiles when you do, commiserates when you are sad, tells you the truth even if u do not want to hear it, holds out a hand when you fall, through the good times and bad times will be there, will be ur rock.
This particular note is for all my friends who have enriched my lives with your love, support and motivation. I hope I am also that friend for you.

painful things about love...

here are few painful things that may or had happened in our lifes...

1) bringing back the feeling you've learned to forget
2) reminiscing the good times
3) trying to hide what u really feel
4) loving someone who loves another
5) having a commitment with someone u know would not last
6) shielding ur heart to love somebody
7) loving a person too much
8) right love at the wrong time
9) taking risk to fall in love again
10) accepting that it was never meant to be
11) "what ifs"

hope that all of this will never ever happen in our lifes...amin~

when a guy really falls in love~ :)

Bila lelaki benar-benar jatuh cinta dan setia pada kekasihnya dengan ikhlas, perubahan sikapnya amat mengejutkan. Hati lelaki yang dianggap keras selama ini, tiba-tiba secara semulajadi menjadi selembut kapas apabila sudah jatuh cinta dengan relanya. Bahkan lelaki yang mabuk cinta sanggup berkorban dan buat apa sahaja untuk kekasihnya.

Sekeras manapun hati lelaki ia akan mengalirkan air mata apabila hatinya dilukai. Untuk melihat lelaki menangis amatlah payah. Diantara tanda-tanda lelaki yang jatuh cinta dengan hebat ialah:

1. dia bersungguh-sungguh melakukan sesuatu untuk kekasihnya dengan rela bukan kerana terpaksa.
2. Dia sentiasa ingin menghiburkan kekasihnya danberubah menjadi orang yang kuat bercakap.
3. Dia banyak menasihati kekasihnya kerana dia amat menyayangi kekasihnya.
4. Dia berusaha mengongkong kebebasan kekasihnya kerana perasaan cemburunya yang meluap-luap.
5. Dia sentiasa takut kehilangan kekasihnya.
6. Dia sentiasa mengawasi pergerakan kekasihnya kerana dia sentiasa berasa curiga.
7. Dia tidak suka ada lelaki lain rapat dengan kekasihnya.
8. Dia mudah merasa cemburu dan sensitif apabila kekasihnya tidak menumpukan sepenuh perhatian kepadanya.
9. Adakalanya dia seperti seorang anak kecil yang meminta perhatian kerana dia mahu kekasihnya melayannya lebih dari orang lain.
10. Dia menjadi orang yang paling rajin dan sanggup membantu kekasihnya melakukan apa saja.
11. Dia pandai merajuk hati kerana ingin dipujuk oleh kekasihnya.
12. Dia akan menggelabah apabila kekasihnya berjauhan daripanya terlalu lama.
13. Dia sentiasa mempastikan keselamatan kekasihnya.
14. Dia mementingkan kekasihnya daripada dirinya sendiri.
15. Dia kerap bertanya adakah kekasihnya mencintainya kerana dia merasa kasihnya lebih kuat daripada kekasihnya.
16. Dia tidak akan melayan perempuan lain yang tidak ada urusan penting dengannya.
17. Dia cuba meluangkan lebih banyak masa dengan kekasihnya walaupun terpaksa menunggu kekasihnya dengan sabar.
18. Dia membanggakan kekasihnya di depan orang lain.
19. Kalau ditinggalkan oleh kekasihnya, ia akan berasa serik dan tidak percaya dengan cinta perempuan lain namun dia sentiasa mengharap kekasihnya kembali kepadanya.
20. Apabila timbul orang ketiga,dia akan hilang akal dan sanggup berbuat apa saja untuk merebut kembali kekasihnya.
21. Dia menganggap kekasihnya sebagai orang yang paling dipercayainya dan sanggup menyerahkan harta walaupun nyawanya sendiri.
22. Dia tidak akan berlaku curang kepada kekasihnya namun jikalau dia berbuat demikian itu bererti hatinya belum 100 % mencintai kekasihnya.
23. Bukan semua lelaki sanggup menitiskan airmata hanya untuk seorang perempuan.

dis is what i found in the girls, if u found a guy like dis, hold him & love him or else u'll regret it..believe me..u will..
& fer me, i think i found, let the time decide the rest..



I'm done with least fer dis semester II..pheww! this is what we call freedom everyone..! u know y? b'coz this is the moment when i dont have to run my life with the same routine..i dont have to wake up early and take a bath with so-damn-cold water every morning...i dont have to get ready in 10 minutes juz to catch a cab to class, or else i have to walk there..huh! i dont have to mess up my day with all those assignments, project works, tutorials and lots more..i am soooo relieved! :)

but, not to say that i hate it...well..actually,

yea..seriously! compared to any other science subjects..i prefer math of course...coz math is not about reading and remembering something's more to understand and know how to apply it into calculations...well, i do love calculations..but sometimes,

it didn't work out much to me..maybe i am the only one who is in love with it..but it doesn't..i hope not!, my last paper fer final sem II was on 30th April 2011 which was Math Logic..&& with holidays fer 4 months started!

4 months is not a short many things i can do during that time..but da question is, which one is the best that i should do??i am still searching fer the answer and i hope i will find the perfect answer soon...what i can hope fer now is that i can spend the whole four-months wisely, but most important, happily...

&& yeah...till we meet again Mr Mathematics!

it's not how we USE it, it's how we PLAY with it...

i just watched many videos in you-tube..well..quite boring doin nothing...n suddenly i caught dis amazing video..dis video illustrates the power of words to radically change ur message && ur effect upon the amazed me seeing the pen is mightier than the sword if we know how to handle and use it well..
so,what i can conclude here is that..

words...its NOT how we USE it, it's how we PLAY with it... :)